Hi Baby Evies mummy ,
Firstly, congratulations on Evies arrival in to your family and becoming a mummy.
Welcome to the site, I hope you will find the comfort & support here you need.
I am sure many ladies here will find your story familiar, myself included.
I remember feeling so out of control in the whirlwind that was delivery and I too 'held out' for the spinal.
I also could not see my baby girl for several days after her arrival & can understand how you feel you missed some of her 'firsts'. But as Evie's mummy, she has given you a special gift that is exclusively yours. You got to see that little blue line on the pregnancy test first. You were the first person in the world who even knew she was expected, you saw her first on her scans and felt her first little flutterings. These little treasure as just for you to keep and although you missed meeting her first, there will be many more firsts that will be just as important.
I often describe PE as a thief. It steals dreams and hopes and what should be a wonderful innocence to pregnancy. PE is indiscriminate and there was nothing you did or didn't do that caused it and nothing you could do to have stopped it.
If you would like to talk things through, I am more than happy to chat with you, just PM me your number & a good time to call and we can go from there. Obviously I do understand if you cant face it, Im happy to chat here too!
Knowledge is the power against this vile condition, it will help to heal your wounds both physical and emotionally but it also acts as a defence for any future pregnancy you may (or may not) decide on.
I hope Evie continues to grow and get stronger every day, I am sure she will bring you every joy.
Warmest wishes to you all
Every Woman is entitled to understand what happened in her pregnancy when pre eclampsia strikes. I hope to be able to support that process.